I am a 22yr. old woman. When I was 10 yrs. old, I was molested. I've told my bf and one best friend before, but never any real details. The reason I don't tell is because it all sounds so funny to me, even though it happened, I guess its a defence mechanism or something. Anyways, when I was 10 yrs. old, my parents had gone bankrupt, they were split up and at different ends of the country, and they left me and my little brother at a family friend's house in the middle of north county, basically a farm in the middle of wooded nowhere. Creepy place. The couple who looked after us would send me out to bring in the cattle in the evening, basically wanderring through hundreds of acres of bush alone calling the cows in german and chasing them home with sticks. Usually I would find them at a water shed in this one field. One day I was there rounding up the cattle, when the man looking after us, an old German man, came riding up to the shed on his dirtbike. He said he wanted to show me something, and being the obedient and submissive child I was raised to be, did whatever he said. First he took one of the bulls and tied it up, and went in the shed and brought out a bunch of knives and tools, and showed me how to castrate the bull. It was so cruel, and I didn't understand what he was doing, only that there was blood and the cow was sufferring. He made me ride home with him on his bike, even though I didnt want to, and kept pulling me closer to him, and I didnt understand then why, but I knew it was wrong in some way. The next day he caught me there again, and this time made me go into the water shed, it had a pump and a sort of little stall with hay. He made me take off my clothes and touched me and took pictures of me. He said if I told he would kill my little brother who was 5yrs old. Every time I had to go get the cows, I would hide in the bush from him, and have had terrible nightmares of dead cows ever since. He did this many times until one day my mom came and took us to some other place to stay. Anyway, that is my confession, that I let this happen and didnt tell, didnt worry if he would do it to other kids, and just forgot about it all. Confess ID: jkdwlsy4        Posted On: 12-Jul-2008