I have been overweight my whole life. I have coped with not being able to do things by living in a dream world. I have experiences and think that they would have been better if I were different. I imagine what it would be like if I were thin; everything would be so much better. I think my whole life will be better when I change myself; experiences will be more interesting and I'll be able to have enough confidence to do things I have always felt like I have been restricted from doing. Like actually showing that I like someone. I keep that bottled inside for fear of rejection and say,"When I'm thin I'll be able to date so-and-so." I was never able to enjoy myself as a child or now when in social gatherings. I always felt like I was excluded from things because I am overweight. I can't go swimming, I've had people berate me my whole life because of how I am physically. People don't realize how simple words like," she/he is so fat." even when they aren't talking about "you" can crush any overweight person's confidence. So many overweight people have a tendency of just giving up because they can't control themselves or they feel down trodden from the pressures of societies' demands. I myself was at one point over 250 pounds. I finally decided for myself that I couldn't let myself spend the rest of my life overweight. I'm only a teenager and I want the rest of my life to be filled with adventure and not holding back from things because of physical condition. I hear people say that fat people are just lazy and they should just suck it up and go on a diet. It isn't that easy! Especially if you have been overweight since childhood. Not only are you used to this condition and therefore afraid of change, overweight people have also gone through years of being looked down upon (or feel that they are; sometimes their perseption isn't true.something I have discovered recently) because of how they look. Yes, every one has self-conscious thoughts and there is always something about their apperance that affects them, but I still feel that the way overweight people are treated (especially obese children) is appalling. Rather than calling us lazy and telling us to get off our asses and loose weight understand that it is not that easy a lot of times obesity is a result of family genes, stress throughout life, self-defeat due to poor self-control and a since of failure that is unable to be conquered. And yes I realize that there are many other people who have gone through discrimination because of various reasons, but when I speak of overweight people I include everyone who is overweight, no matter where they are from, what ethnicity or race they are or what attitude about weight they have. As for those people who are overweight; you can do it, but only once you realize that it is what you want. The main goal of loosing weight is to live a healthier life. It is true that being overweight is not good for your health (but also fluctuating from one weight to another on yo-yo diets can be even more harmful) so if you finally are able to sort out the emotional reasons that you are overweight and regain your self-control than you can loose the weight. You just have to be ready to commit and try to prevent excessive yo-yoing. I myself have been going on and off my diet for two years now. I at one point had lost a total of 57 pounds from originally being 250. I have just recently gone back on my diet after a few months of being off (in which I regained weight going up to 225 pounds again). I can't say I don't still day dream about what certain activities in my daily life would have been like if I were already thin, but I realize that I just have to stick to my diet and be patient, 75-100 pounds (the amount I need to lose) does not come off in a day. Well I will keep going with this and continue to post confessions about my progress and how I feel about this and weight related issues. Just call me, dream achiever Confess ID: elk5tled        Posted On: 26-Nov-2008