I have given up every last shread of self respect for my boyfriend. He wanted head, I gave him head. He wanted anal, I let him and it hurts like hell every time, but still I let him. He wanted me to lick his asshole while he jerked off and came on my face and in my hair. I did it and I let him. Aside from the perverse kinky sex he makes me do, he treats me very well. He buys me nice things, sends flowers for no reason. He tells me I am beautiful and the only woman who has ever understood his needs and been willing to do the things he wants in bed. He said he will love me forever for understanding his fetishes. But now he wants to do me doggie style while I blow his best friend, and I just don't know when it is going to be enough. How much more humiliation do I have to suffer so you can get off? Don't you see that everytime I give into your fetishes it kills a part of my soul? I love him so much. He is handsome and smart and on the outside seems like everything a woman could want. But the sex stuff makes me feel like a toy to him. It humiliates me the things I have done to satisfy him. His friend is coming over tonight, and so my confession is this. Even though it hurts me to do these things, if it is what he wants, I know I will end up doing it. I can't bear the thought of losing him and he knows it. I just wish he understood. He says he loves me too but this is just what he needs to really enjoy sex and if I am that bothered by it, maybe I should find somebody more my style. God it tears me apart loving him this much. Confess ID: ftijd4vn        Posted On: 26-Nov-2008