I ran into an ex-boyfriend last week. He told me how he's engaged and expecting a baby. I pretended to be happy for him and gave him a hug as we parted. When I got home, I spent 10 minutes crying in the shower and another 30 when I got out. I honestly didn't think it would affect me like that but it did. He hurt me so bad and I just remember all the times we talked about what our future would be like and our hypothetical children and it hurts so much. I think the biggest thing is that I'm alone, I think if I were actually in a relationship right now, it wouldn't of hurt so bad. But I hate, hate, hate that's he found someone and that I haven't. I'm so scared to end up alone.
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Posted On: 03-Aug-2008