Bimbo makes me cry everytime I watch it. Racist people make me more angry than anything. Homophobic people make me more angry than anything other than racist people, but I am sometimes homophobic inside. I never show it but soimetimes I am. For this, I hate myself. I act dumb around my friends to make them feel good. It works. My friends only like me when I act dumb. I passionatly hate every one of my friends, and I only hang out with them and pretend to like them so that I'm not a loner. I lie to my friends more than I don't and I have immense control over most of them because of this. I can controll what slang they use and what they wear, how often they shave their legs and whether they shave or wax, I can change their opinion on anything that they have an opinion on, I can make them dislike other people that they don't dislike, I can make them fall in love with someone disgusting. I really hate myself for this. A lot. I am in love with my teacher who is almost exacly 40 years older than me. I want him in every possible way. I sometimes resent my brother wo is 16 years younger than me. (I am 17). This is immature. I masterbate at least once a day. Sick. I have terrible grades and loads of homework. I am in my last year of highschool and I have to graduate. I am failing two classes. I have all this pressure to grad because I am supposed to be the first in my family to graduate. My whole family is pressuring me. and what am I doing??!?! I'm on the computer which is ruining my life because it's the only thing that I do. I hate this life. I hate myself. I want to fly from here. I want to escape. Confess ID: tvbh3pq1        Posted On: 18-Aug-2008