I have been married for a month and a half. My husband and I haven't even used up a 12 pack of condoms. I cleaned our bedroom the other day and found three condoms without come in them. He's been faking orgasms. We almost never have sex. It hurts me so badly. He seems almost completely uninterested in me. I was a virgin before him. He used to initiate and appear interested. I had a large sex drive and could climax quickly and easily. But as the months have passed and I have been rejected by him 3/4 of the time I have lost all self-esteem and the ability to enjoy sex. Last night he tried to initiate. The last four times (over a 3 week period) we've had sex he's just stuck it in before I was at all ready. Pumped in and out for about two minutes (I am not making this up, I can see the clock while we do it) and then rolled over and gone to sleep. So, I said no last night. He tried to convince me he really wanted to do it and it wasn't obligation sex. He rubbed his flacid penis against me, started fingering me and then within 2 minutes fell asleep with his fingers still in me. I got up and left. When I came back an hour later he woke up and asked me why I left when we were having sex. I told him we weren't having sex, that he fell asleep. He tried to touch me again. I wouldn't let him. He said, "can't I just put my hand there". I lost it and said, "IF YOU'RE GOING TO FALL ASLEEP LIKE THAT, NO! NO, YOU CAN'T PUT YOUR FUCKING HAND THERE! DON'T TOUCH ME". I've begged him and begged him to give me some reason that our sex life is the way it is. It's horrible and I feel like it will ruin our relationship. I don't know what to do at this point. I've honesly tried everything. I cry myself to sleep every single night. It seems like he never even thinks about me sexually. Last night I dreamt I was giving one of his best friends a blow job. It felt really great to have someone desire me in that dream. I've been thinking about the dream all day and hoping that one day my husband will look at me and want to fuck. Confess ID: 00r0veq0        Posted On: 27-Dec-2008