I told her six months ago that I had a crush on her and she said she was surprised, flattered, and I know she was freaked out. The note I wrote slid off her leg on the seat of the car when she got up as she slipped out from under it, pretending it wasn't there. She got engaged a couple weeks later, and I'm married, so I can't say I blame her for asking me to pretend that day never happened. I'm sure she has no interest in speaking with me again. Even if she were single, would she still like a cheater? The thing she doesn't know is that I don't have any idea what I would have done if she had done anything else in response to my note. I didn't think that far ahead at all. The other thing is that my wife's had three affairs, and I've stayed faithful I suppose. There was never time to explain that, and if I had, it would have sounded like I was trying to justify my own transgression as retailiation on my wife, which it was not, rather than admitting that it was a flat-out crush, which it is. I sent a couple of emails to her before she left for good, trying to pretend like I was normal. She politely responded like I was normal and then once she left, I haven't emailed or anything. Unwanted attention is not cool, and I hate myself for having made things uncomfortable for someone. The only thing to do was to just stop and not make it worse. I love my wife, but it's getting hard to deal with her indiscretion and my own insanity about this. I thought telling this woman about my crush and then having her move far away would make it all go away, but it's only gotten worse. Meanwhile, my wife is spending 10 days right now with her current beau, and I'm too embarassed to reach out and tell anyone how I really feel. I don't want to lose anything more. Confess ID: hnli2yuf        Posted On: 25-Dec-2008