i dont kno what i'm doing.. i'm 20 years old (21 in two weeks) and i have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life. i go to school and intend on finishing my degree but i don't even like the subject i'm majoring in. i've been in college three years now and have changed my major five times. i'm depressed. i hide it well. noone even knows. they think i'm content, but really i'm lonely. i haven't had a real relationship in about two and half years. all the guys i date end up being non-commital sex crazed weirdos. i don't want to be a peice of ass anymore. don't get me wrong i enjoy "no strings attached" sex, just like anyone else but most of the time i just long for that one commited guy. the one who truely enjoys my company. the one who really cares for me and what i have to say or about anything that i'm doing. i miss it. i miss cuddling. i miss the closeness to another human being. i miss someone whispering the words "goodnight beautiful" and actually meaning it rather than just saying it because that's what they say to all the other girls they're seeing. i miss being loved. i don't get it. i kno i'm not bad looking. hell i was voted best looking at my high school. why is it that the only guys interested in me just want sex. i mean i love sex, i'll admit it, i'm a nympho. but most of the time i want more than that. why can't i find a good guy for a change? Confess ID: 1gw4d0tz        Posted On: 15-May-2008