i feel incompetant. i don't even know how to spell that word. i feel like everything in my life is falling apart completely. i haven't really had a conversation with my dad in forever, and i have to make up excuses to "pick something up at the house". sometimes i wonder if he cares about me or not, as silly as that sounds. even though i have great friends, i feel like i can't open up to anybody. i physically can not open up to my family. i don't know why. i'm overly sensitive. i cry at EVERYTHING, and i take EVERYTHING to heart. although on the outside i seem like a fun loving, crazy person, i really think i'm depressed. in fact, i think i've been depressed for the past year and a half or two years. i just haven't been able to open up to my family about it. i also have serious self image issues i've been dealing with forever. i'm fat, and i always have been. always. i keep telling myself to work out and to stop eating so much, but i don't know why i can't stop. it's like an addiction. and it kills me when i can't fit into the jeans or skirt that i could fit into last season. at work, things aren't that great either. i started out as this hard-working employee who the boss loved, and now i feel just so incompetant. like i can't do anything right. i know i sound so emo, but this is supposed to be a confession, am i right? i cry for hours on end because i'm just so lonely. and the sad thing is i think i'll be lonely forever. i can't picture myself falling in love with somebody and being able to open up to them, or having somebody fall in love with me, period. i know i should have confidence and i mean, i think i'm a good person and all. i just can not picture it. i really miss my dad, even though i say i hate him. and i really do love my family, even though i say i hate them too. i would never be able to survive if anything happened to them. Confess ID: wql2fv2p        Posted On: 30-May-2008