i was a self confessed man whore. i had loose morals, i slept around, i was a womaniser. however you put it, it all means the same thing. i was like this until i met my girlfriend. ive had girls and girlfriends in the past, but none like her. she is perfect. completely. i dont know what i did to deserve her.
today we were mucking around and she called me a whore in jest. mockingly, i asked how she could call me that when she was one. it was a joke. she denied it, i said bull and said ‘how many people have you slept with?'
stupid mistake.
shes young, not much younger than me. able to drink or drive, but still young. i assumed it would be a couple of people, but it was more.
before we were going out we would fool around, but never sex. sex was how i thought she let me know i was special to her. i know it sounds like i have double standards, and i beat myself about it. she knew my history. i assumed hers. she means more to me than anyone ever has, but now i feel ordinary - just another guy shes seeing, another guy, nothing overly special.
it cuts me from the inside.
it hurts more than any other pain i have felt.
i am just another guy shes seeing, another guy, nothing overly special.
Confess ID: mb1yrqdx
Posted On: 15-May-2008