Confess ID : f6n5houi
-MODERATER, EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO ACCEPT THIS BECAUSE IT IS LONG, AT LEAST READ IT BECAUSE I THINK IT WILL EITHER MAKE YOU SNICKER OR TURN YOU ON-
i believe i have developed a problem
this problem involves SEX SEX SEX
i am too horny
all the time
i'm the HORNIEST CHICK I KNOW
have been all my life
masturbated ever since my arms have been long enough to reach -down there-
i have two younger brothers
they had pesky little friends that came over
and i would subject myself to sexual humiliation by them and in front of them and we would go into the curtained playroom while the parents talked and basically just fuck around and giggle and stick oranges in our pants and make eachother find them
i was about the age of six when this happened
and just little stuff like that happened yada yada yada
then in around third or fourth grade, i had a curly haired best friend whose mom was italian and we would go back to her house and they would make me vegetarian sandwhiches and we would to homework
then
after
we would play "doctor"
us, 2 ten and eleven year old girls,
would both get very aroused by this
trouble was, her parents never let her close her bedroom door, some freaky shit big brother is watching kinda deal
so
we would do this inside or near the CLOSET
no pun intended
but anyways, we would get the little eyedropper and the stethoscope and see if the others cunt had a pulse and drop water droplets on eachothers nipples and watch them get hard
so yeah
it was pretty fucked up
then she told her mom
and we weren't friends anymore
so i guess it was kind of embarrassing
and then basically i think in fifth and sixth grade
i started to fool around with my older brother
and i do not know where i obtained this ultimate perversion for such a little twelve year old
but basically
he came in my room to say good night, really innocent, nothing intended, just saying it from the door
and i told him to come in
and he slept in my bed that night
and he fingered me and he would play with my clit and watched me jolt around
and we did this for a long time after that like night after night after night
and althought i didn't get much enjoyment from this, I was the one who asked HIM to do it
then i gave him head one time in the shower
and we heard someone coming and there was soap on the floor of the shower so i fell over and hurt my head really bad and it bled
and nobody was really there
but he had just hopped out and left
and this is back when i was young
with no breasts or flirtatiosness
and i jacked him off occaisionally
and he was only in sixth or seventh grade when this happened
but i remember vividly
he must have been at least seven or eight inches long
like fucking big
and i was fascinated with it
and i think i guess i figure this is all pretty normal and a little fucked up to have done this but i don't exactly feel ashamed, i just think it would freak other people out
so anyways
one night
i think we must have had people over
and so we both had to sleep out in the family room on the fold out couch
and everyone went to sleep
and i got undressed and so did he
and i laid on top of him and we were both really hot and sticky on eachother
and after like three minutes of me breathing in his face and talking dirty to him
i felt him getting really stiff down there and it was rising up and i was getting wet myself
and i went down under the blankets near his cock to suck it
and i did
and i liked it
and then we tried to have sex
since i hadn't had my period yet
and i knew it would be okay and i was just that horny
and i think i didn't connect that it was wrong because he looks nothing like me at all and people always say we don't look related
so i guided him in
and i didn't know what i was doing
and then i was terrified for some reason because i thought my parents might find out
and now this year i made plans to go sex this guy up that i barely knew but was intensely attracted to
but i didn't
because i thought my two best friends would be ashamed of me
but then one of them ended up having sex with some junior in high school that is the older brother of some kid in our grade and everyone found out but anyways, the other friend is a total prude and blah blah blah so i thought she wouldn't like me but she is literally my best friend and i love her to death
BUT [the plot thickens]
i am also secretly attracted to her because i am bi
so i reeeeeeeeeally
really
really BADLY
want to make out with her in the corner of her room behind her bed in the cold
but
i think she doesn't feel like that towards me or girls in general
and i use a vibrator
and i keep saying fuck, im putting this piece of shit away for good
but then i get really horny the next week and pull it out from where i'd stashed it and padlocked it
and i've got a crazy life
and it sounds like shit or some sitcom
and that wasn't even the half of it
and it sounds fake
but its not
and i sound like i would be a pretty messed up person from that and the fact that i drink and make apple bongs and my parents don't like me that much and i don't know waht im doing with my life
but i am actually usually very optimistic and i like art and im starting a band and a zine and i have a few close friends and i get invited to parties and i just have a few.erm.problem spots in my past
but really, i've moved on and so yeah
i have never told anybody all of that before
and now i just told a big bunch of people
so i guess that felt really good
i want a hug and a boyfriend[girlfriend maybe?] now
because i need some lovin'
