Confess ID : q0sdhck4
Last sunday, i was over my boyfriend's new apartment, helping him move in. i gave him a super nice blowjob in the late afternoon after all the stuff was moved and everybody who was helping him had left. he came so hard- soooo much cum! i tried to swallow it all but i literally couldn't my mouth was full and i couldn't get it down my throat fast enoughsome dribbled out of my mouth and on his belly. it was so hot!
after this, we go to lunch, run some errands, and come back. we make out a little, he happily snuggles with me in bed, and he falls asleep for a nap (we had been up and moving since 5:30), but i couldn't sleep b/c i had taken my adderall earlier and you just can't nap on that shit. so here i am, exhausted from moving stuff up 3 flights of stairs, but super alert/awake, and horny as fuck. so i get up, go outside, smoke a butt.2.3. and talk on the phone with my friend for awhile, but even after that i'm still pretty horny. i couldn't stop thinking about him cumming so hard in/on/around me and i just needed to cum so bad! i'm just about to go find a spot to masturbate, when he wakes up from his nap comes to find me and wants to start organizing his new house, and asks for my help.
so i help him. i put things away. i clean stuff. i set up his computer and look to see if there's a WiFi signal nearby he could steal until his cable gets turned on (there wasn't). the whole time, i'm keeping busy, trying to distract myself from my horniness but all i can think of is his cock in my mouth earlier and how god, i just want it in my pussy and how good that would feel right now.ugh! this goes on in my mind until everything is put away, maybe an hour or so, and the whole time all i want is sex, but i don't say anything because i know he wants to get everything done and squared away in his new place.
so then he asks if i want to relax in bed with him. i say sure! i start to get excited and i ask him coyly what he wants to do in bed. he says "read my new magazine, and you can read your book, and we can lay next to each other and relax in the AC in my room!" i say ok, sure, that sounds nice. but inside i'm so disappointed because i'm still so fucking horny i'm ready to burst! ugh!
so yeah, we lay next to each other on our bellies, and read our separate things, and his magazine happens to be GQ. within minutes, i'm getting whiffs of the sexiest new cologne samples in god's creation wafting over to me on the breeze from the AC. ugh, god, seriously, there are very few things that can turn me on instantly like the fresh, crisp, delicious, sexy scent of a new men's cologne. so i look up from my book, and ask him "ooh, that smells gooood! what is that?" he says, "oh, what? I didn't even smell it yet.here." and he has to flip a couple pages ahead to the cologne ad (I think it may have been Gautier or something) and opens the little paper flap and puts it in front of my nose so i can really smell it. at this point, i can't take it anymore! i look right at my bf and say "mmmmmm, this smells sooooo good! ugh! wow, this smell is making me so horny right now." and i reach over to turn his face to mine and i give him a nice long wet kiss on the lips. at this point i'm feeling myself getting ridiculously excited, wet. my lace panties are soaked. i start to bite his lip and pull his tounge into my mouth with mine. mid-kiss, he starts laughing and pulls away. he says "jeez! you get horny from everything, huh? you'd probably see a dead rat in the street and that would turn you on!" and he giggles, smiles at me, gives my ass a quick, firm, smack with his open palm (i love when he does that, by the way!).and goes back to reading his GQ.
at this point, i'm like what the fuck? what a tease! part of me wants to jump on him and fuck and kiss and lick and scratch and just make him fuck the shit out of me.but i also really really don't want to admit that yeah, he's basically right.maybe i AM always horny!? i'm pissed. i don't want him to know how much this is killing me inside to be this horny and not to be able to cum, all day, when he has been in my mouth earlier and on my mind all day long.
i get up. i want to go for a fast food run. (nothing is as satisfying.or as un-sexy.as a big fat greasy double cheeseburger!) he tells me he should come with me, since i don't know my way around his new neighborhood at all, and he doesn't want me to get lost. i say ok, and i drive. i make him listen to techno in my car the whole ride, which cheers me up, but he doesn't particularly like, i don't think. oh well. he doesn't complain. we get burger king and bring it back to eat as we watch a dumb movie with vince vaughn. we are exhausted and both have to get up early for work, so then we go to bed.
we cuddle in his bed. he's spooning me and i love the way we fit together like that. his arm is wrapped tight around my middle, under the covers, and i feel so safe and warm and good. he falls asleep quickly, and i try to sleep but my mind keeps wandering to sex. i roll over and stick my hand down my panties. i tickle my clit a little and get wet immediately. my pussy aches. i just want to cum! i take off my panties and try to masturbate quietly in bed next to him, without waking him up, but i worry that the bed is moving too much. I don't have any toys handy to play with, and i can't really use my own fingers because of my long nails, but I just want to be penetrated. I imagine myself getting fucked by his nice hard cock in his new kitchen, up against the counter, on the stove, on the nice shiny new floors. i can't take one more second of this. i need to cum! i look over at my bf, and see that he's still very much asleep. i whisper to him "you're snoring. roll over and snuggle with me!" i pull him toward me as he does as i request. i take his hand and shove it between my legs. he almost pulls it away at first, but then sleepily acquiesces. he lets me have my way with his fingers, one at first, then two at a time. my pussy is impossibly wet, my heart is beating fast, and i'm trying to be as quiet as humanly possible as i pull his wrist towards me over and over with both of my hands, pumping his long, thick fingers in and out, in and out until i know it's coming.that release i have been waiting for all day long! i feel my legs, arms, stomach, pussy, all start to tighten, and then quivver with excitement, and then tighten again in tiny spasms. i feel so good. i whimper with glee, cum all over his fingers, and then relax. i give him back his hand, considering for a moment whether i should lick his sticky fingers clean for him but before i can, he turns over onto his other side, taking his hand with him, and goes right back to sleep and snores a little.
the next morning, we both wake up happy. we snuggle in bed and spoon for a while. he says "Hey can I ask you something weird?"
"ya, sure", I say.
"um.well i wasn't sure if this was a dream or if it really happened, but did i finger you in the middle of the night?"
"umm, yeah." i tell him, trying not to smile. i don't let on that it was not only very real, but that it was my idea, and that i basically raped his fingers! i hide my face in my pillow and pretend to doze off.
Confess ID : hnr440bo
For the last 4 and a half years, I've known your feelings for me. I turned a blind eye to them, which itself was reprehensable. Even more so was my own feelings I seemingly shunned for so long. And now you finally know, but as you say, it's too late, and you're seeing him now. I know I said I'd always be there for you, but this is tearing me apart piece by piece. Each day I feel like this, I have to shut myself off more to cope - innevitably I will end up feeling nothing at all, no pain, no sorrow, not even the love I have for you and cherish so much. This is why I'll do what I have to after your party on Saturday. It's for the best - you deserve a shot at happiness, and should be able to enjoy what you have now. With me around, that won't happen. So I'm going to be the one to actually do the right thing by us and walk away. You say you can't be happy unless I'm in your life, but that will soon change. You have him now, and all I'm doing is making things worse with my uncontrollable emotional outbursts. I wish things could be different, but as you've said, they can't. You've chosen to be with him now. I can't force you to be with me.
I'll never be able to love anyone like I love you, maybe this is the beginning of life alone? Who knows. The only thing I know for certain is nomatter what, if you ask, i'd come back to you in a second without hesitation, nor a shadow of a doubt. You mean everything to me, you always will, even if it seems I'm throwing away the good things between us. Maybe oneday you'll read this and understand.
Goodbye J, I love you.
M
Confess ID : pve4hzje
I broke up with my boyfriend last night. Boyfriend. I use this term loosely. I broke up with the man who for the past 8 months has witheld any kind of intimacy or emotion, has sponged me for liquor, food, books, weed, gas money, even my fucking tv. I wanted so badly for him to love me. I put in so much effort. I was so nice to him. He nver had a request that I said no to. I would surprise him with little things, and just be as sweet as can be to him. He is the smartest person I have ever met, and I thought he was perfect. He was inspiring me to be a better person. Now I feel so drained. I gave my all to this man. He is just never going to feel the way about me that I feel about him. I'm not sure that he has an feelings at all. I wanted him to take care of me and make feel good, like I thought I was doing for him. I guess I am not the right kind of person for him. Either that, or he's a robot. I am just so sad now. My eyes are so puffy from crying, I can barely see. I need a hug so badly. I want my mom.
