I can't believe I'm doing this but I can't take it anymore. I was molested when I was a kid and I can't get past the mental block and other problems that it has caused. It's a terrible burden to carry and I've never wrote about it before. This is it. I can't tell anyone it's too embarassing. I know how people are. It's tearing my soul apart and it takes all of my will to not become something evil and terrible. I know how the world works and i know everyone will say it's not your fault it's ok. It wasn't my fault but everything else is. I make my own decisions and I have the power to change but i don't and can't. Why? Why can't i just get all this crap out of my head and lead a normal life? I'm just so tired of it all that i don't care what happens to me anymore. Ahhhh! Well, at least if I didn't tell anyone i know at least i told someone. even if you don't know me. I'm turning 30 this year and my life is a mess. It's not easy for me to meet people and I can't even bring myself to approach women most of the time. This is, i think so much harder for men then it is women. Not that i think it's easy for anyone. Men are just jerks about it. I know becaue i've laughed and pretended i thought it was funny a million times. Well I don't. there's something wrong in my head and i know it. I think i'd be better off if i was crazy and didn't realize i was going to snap. That's all i have thanks.. Confess ID: fmg31wz1        Posted On: 01-Jul-2008